Burning the Candle

I am currently burning the candle at both ends. I don't know how long it will continue. I have some goals to reach before I need to back off. Pray that those goals will come before I burn all up! I think the hardest thing about this apparent workaholism that has taken me over is the possible effect it may have on my family and friends. I am assuring them it is temporary, but they don't wait. Children grow up, husbands grow older, friends get busy and move on to some degree. Though this present flurry of activity is necessary to keep the wolf from the door and a roof over our heads, albeit a leaky one. I pray for great wisdom to know how long to persevere.

I think tonight I will send the Lord an email. Put it all down in writing for His eyes only. I tend to communicate better in writing, so maybe I will try that. I know he hears me , but I get so distracted when praying in my head, perhaps writing it down will keep me more focused. I certainly am inadequate to keep up this pace for long. If I do, I fear that the people I love most will have become strangers. I am sure that is not my Father's perfect will. I do pray for renewed strength, greater efficiency, greater discernment and greater compassion during these hard times.

Only so much can be accomplished by time management and goal setting. The rest is delivered by the grace of God. We are so finite, He so totally infinite. We so weak and He strength itself. We love weakly and he IS love. Oh! my, Father watch out for me. Keep me on the right path and kindly and gently following it. Protect my loved ones while I am distracted and tired. Lord you do all things well, help me to do my few the same way.

Lawana